Jason's Story
I became a Christian aged 17, after never being in a church, with a dramatic conversion experience. I visited a local church that was helping my mother after my father had walked out, and I had two brothers, one aged 15 the other, 1 year old.It was my first experience of a place full of worship, life, and talk about relationship with Jesus. Given that the violence and abuse in my home, when the youth pastor told me becoming a Christian might make life more difficult, he gave me a hard sell.

But I was invited into a life meaning, adventure and purpose, with something to live for and something to die for. I gave my life to Jesus on the spot, when I heard that.Then I knew everything had to change, that my life was His, and my future plans were now His to direct.

I ended up working for a bank, then doing a theology degree, then working as an investment broker in London whilst helping plant churches, and started my family during this time, having met my wife at seminary.

Carl was a huge part of my story. I wouldn't have planted a church if it wasn't for one particular meeting in Brighton, that he was involved in, that allowed me to step out within my denomination.
Then in the midst of planting, I had a full nervous breakdown in 1999, overwork, my drug of choice, instead of my parent and siblings use of alcohol.
Very few people were there during that time outside my church, finding mental health hard to get involved with.

But Carl was, I remember his phone call to me, and the relief in knowing someone had been through something similar, and he helped me find hope and connection to Jesus.  So several years later, I'm still in ministry, still trying to keep it real, as I know lecture and teach at seminaries, and have found that Jesus had an academic as well as church planting journey for me.

Jason Clark

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Saturday
Nov072009

I Wanna Get Naked

I Wanna Get Naked!

Do I have your attention? Some of you may be shocked, some of you may be sickened, some of you may be saying to yourself, “What they said is true, he's nuts!”

OK, let me explain what I mean, which could make it worse, but here it goes:  A few years back I was invited to speak at a men's retreat. The thought occurred to me that I should begin the first session by coming out naked! Yep, buck-naked!!!!!! OK, maybe some sandals to protect my delicate feet, other than that, come out in all my splendor. In my mind I could clearly see the reaction. I could see guys falling out of their chairs laughing. I could see them staring at me in complete and total disbelief, but most of all, I could see and hear a group consensus emerging....”Put something on!”  If I had actually done this, it would have made these men exceedingly uncomfortable. They would not have been able to endure me standing before them naked. And this reminded me of church!

We say we want to be open, transparent, honest, accepting, but we work really hard at covering up our imperfections and we become really uncomfortable when we are exposed to the imperfections of others as well.

There appears to be somewhat of a double standard at work in our midst, "Come as you are,” but  “Change, at least on the outside as soon as possible!”  The raw, naked truth makes us very uncomfortable. I think mostly because we don't know what to do with it. We tell people they just need to make right choices and everything will be OK.   Gosh, I wonder why Jesus never thought of that? Are you going to tell me He did? Is it some sort of Omega code hidden in the Sermon on the Mount?

You can argue that Jesus invited us to “Come and die” and that's a choice. But Jesus never invited anyone to do anything. Jesus was at the right hand of the Father when all that exists was created...the One who said, “Let there be light and there was light,” doesn't invite, He commands. When Jesus says, “Follow me,” it is not a suggestion. In Jesus’ time if a Rabbi said, “Follow me,” there was no other answer but “Yes.” It was the greatest honor of that time. It meant you were the best of the best of the best. I was like being asked to serve the President of the United States; you just did it.

Are there multiple-choice options when Jesus says, “Come to me”? Are there some other ways to find rest? Is there some other way to learn from Him, be instructed by Him than to come to Him?  I contend it is not simply a matter of ”right choices” or a commitment to a particular program that leads to life. I would contend that it is complete, total surrender to the One who says, “Come to me all you who are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”  A set of principles will not give you rest, a series of right choices will not won't give you rest, the right affiliation will not bring peace and contentment. It's not in a principle; it's in Him.  Before Him we stand “naked and unashamed” and He clothes us in His perfection, His “rightness” so to speak.

It seems to me that there is no way to enter into the community of faith as those who follow Jesus, other than to admit that we fall impossibly short of His perfection. There is no way to be a “Christian” other than to admit that we are completely and totally un-Christ like.  In classics language we are sinners, who need a savior. But it appears, having once admitted that, we try to distance ourselves from that reality as quickly as possible.  Conforming to our new surrounding, acting and looking like everyone else, so others won't see that having come to Christ we are still flawed and hopelessly lost without Him.  We learn the language of church, adapt to the culture and blend in, all the while struggling with the fact that we are still sinners who need a savior, but can no longer admit it once we are "in” so we cover up. Moses did it and Paul busted him. Moses was in the presence of the Lord and he radiated that presence and it scared the people, so Moses wore a veil. Paul rats him in telling us that Moses wore the veil long after the glow had gone. Hmmm sound familiar?  

One of the things I really appreciate about “High Church” is the fact that communion is the center of the whole liturgy.  The altar, the place where we openly admit we are sinners, serves as a reminder to us that “If we confess our sins, because He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”   In a sense when that is done we do so in nakedness. We are unable to pretend that we don't fail, that we aren't flawed, that we don't sin. Perhaps that is one of the reasons why Jesus instituted Communion as one of the central sacraments of the faith----So the pretenders can't pretend.  It's a place where we have admit that even though we made all the right choices and followed all the right principles, kept all the right promises, we are still sinners who need a Saviour. You cannot take communion and cover up your flaws, in fact, if you take Communion, you are admitting you are flawed, that you fall short.  I just wish that afterward we wouldn't go back to pretending and covering up.  I want to get naked! I want to be who I am, warts and all! I want to be loved by God's people like I am loved by God.

I don't want to feel like I need to cover up, because my pain, my brokenness, my failures make others uncomfortable in a church culture that says if you come to Jesus your marriage will be better. If you come to Jesus your kids will be better. If you come to Jesus your finances will be better. Is that the Gospel?  And I don't want others to cover up because they feel their pain, their brokenness, and their failures will make me uncomfortable.

We are what we are; we are who we are. Before God we are naked and unashamed, before each other, not so much.

I just want to be who I am and what I am, the same person before God as I am before others. I don't want to have to try and hide, try to conform, try to cover up for people when I don't have to cover up for God. But unfortunately, I feel like I need to, I feel like I have to because my “nakedness” makes others cringe.

"Just as I am, I come to thee..."

Naked I came into the world; naked I will leave this world, blessed be the name of the Lord!

 


Reader Comments (2)

Hey Carl, love this article. First of all I wish it were true that when folks came to communion it was that they (me) could say we had made all the right choices and lived by the right principles and yet knew we were sinners in spite of that. I have yet to have meet anyone in my years of pastoring who had done anything in the "all" catagory. But that aside, I too, love the idea of the living in the naked truth. Being ill the last seveal years has taught me so much about being a truth teller. And seeing so much hurt and sin and lying and pretending in the "church" breaks my heart. So blessings to you and others who choose to tell the truth and stand in their truth as hard as it is!
Lesly Ann

November 23, 2009 | Unregistered Commenterlesly ann bird

Amen bro.

Why should i try anymore i always fail. He says don't try. He says sit down over there and I'll get u a cuppa, relax I'm here in real live Spirit, you are safe child.

Ive come to the conclusion that i cannot prosper my life with this new-fangled christianity. Nor is it scriptural. Its plain and simply earthly. It attracts by dangling earthly carrots. It doesnt sell Calvary ( i know its a gift).


I want less people in my church who can worship in truth than hordes of ppl driving for hours flooding into my area who follow emotionally. i want a small local church of a few good freinds. how can a pastor ( a single pastor is unbiblical) possibly minister to the amount of people he wants to come in. there is no use in praying for this wonderful pouring out of the spirit and massive numbers if they all go to the one church and sing the same songs and listen to the same weak talking week after week.
Sorry sheperds it isnt cutting it. and i dont have the answer.

Its almost a thing of the past. Will we see another revival in the last days of small local churches again? I think if any martydom starts in the west yes numbers will quickly dwindle.

I want to walk to church. i want to wave out my window as my siblings pass everyday back and forth to the shops and work. i don't want big i don't want potent i just want real. i want family. i want some kind of spiritual relevance. i want every single person to mean something. i want to know every name and who sits where.

why can tthe big churches in city districts then split into street churches, avenue churches again? whats the benefit of 400 over 40? its louder......?

how can we live with our neighbours not ever seeing us go to church at the top of the hill because we are driving 20 minutes away. mindless..... whats this Christian life about?

But however in light of all my ranting to men about men, overall I want to love. That means every soul in every church and not in it too. lol My joy is my awareness of His love.

Carl i like your naked honesty.


blessings in Him

Pete

August 8, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterpete

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