Jason's Story
I became a Christian aged 17, after never being in a church, with a dramatic conversion experience. I visited a local church that was helping my mother after my father had walked out, and I had two brothers, one aged 15 the other, 1 year old.It was my first experience of a place full of worship, life, and talk about relationship with Jesus. Given that the violence and abuse in my home, when the youth pastor told me becoming a Christian might make life more difficult, he gave me a hard sell.

But I was invited into a life meaning, adventure and purpose, with something to live for and something to die for. I gave my life to Jesus on the spot, when I heard that.Then I knew everything had to change, that my life was His, and my future plans were now His to direct.

I ended up working for a bank, then doing a theology degree, then working as an investment broker in London whilst helping plant churches, and started my family during this time, having met my wife at seminary.

Carl was a huge part of my story. I wouldn't have planted a church if it wasn't for one particular meeting in Brighton, that he was involved in, that allowed me to step out within my denomination.
Then in the midst of planting, I had a full nervous breakdown in 1999, overwork, my drug of choice, instead of my parent and siblings use of alcohol.
Very few people were there during that time outside my church, finding mental health hard to get involved with.

But Carl was, I remember his phone call to me, and the relief in knowing someone had been through something similar, and he helped me find hope and connection to Jesus.  So several years later, I'm still in ministry, still trying to keep it real, as I know lecture and teach at seminaries, and have found that Jesus had an academic as well as church planting journey for me.

Jason Clark

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Jan242009

Called and Confused

Called and Confused

Throughout the Bible we see people who were chosen by God to represent Him and do His work here on earth. In many cases we see great leaders who were also reluctant servants.  For example, it is obvious that Moses was called by God to deliver the Israelites from the oppressive hand of Pharaoh, yet he wasn't too eager to receive the calling when God first spoke to him.  The exchange between God and Moses in Exodus 4 is almost comical. Moses keeps making excuses and finally says, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it."  Gideon was a surprise pick.  He was reluctant to heed the call of mighty warrior because he felt inadequate being from the weakest clan and the youngest in his family.   He asked God for sign to confirm his calling.  Saul reacted to being anointed by hiding in the luggage! My guess is not only was David’s family confused by the passing over of his older brothers by Samuel when looking for Saul’s replacement, but to pick the baby of the family!  That just wasn’t done.  I’m thinking David wasn’t sure what the heck was going on either. Joseph, who after being left in a pit by his brothers, certainly couldn’t have imagined one day being elevated over them, or for that matter, his whole family.  My guess is that by the time he was sold into slavery, falsely accused by Potiphar’s wife, cast into a dungeon and seemingly forgotten by all, his God-given dream was a faded memory.

Over the thousands of years of human history there have been millions of men and women who believe that God has spoken to them, tapped them to do His work here on earth. In fact, it would be the exception, not the rule if you spoke to someone involved in leading a ministry for them to say there was any other reason for doing what they are other than having been “led by God” to do it. Call it what you want, “anointed,” “called,” “spoken to,” or  “a visitation.”  Everyone in ministry believes they are doing it because God has chosen them for such a work.   Most of us have known someone like this, or have been involved in a ministry in which someone who is leading the ministry has stated that they ‘”feel called.”  There is nothing wrong with this. I would place myself in that category as well.  I, to this day, can take you to the exact spot in San Clemente, California, where I believe the Lord first made me aware that He was “calling me” into ministry, and that was 50 years ago. I know the street address. I have visited the place. Yet from that point forward it has been anything but “upward and onward!”  The fact is, for me, it has been many times a very confusing thing to be “called by God.”

It appears to me that there are many who are confused when it comes to this calling; many who interpret it in many different ways. You have people who see themselves as “God’s anointed.” Since people are warned not to “come against God’s anointed,” it can mean, “Don’t question what I’m doing.”  For some reason I have always contrasted that against the exchange in Acts between Paul and the Bereans. I’m sure the Bereans knew of Paul’s reputation, that he was an Apostle, called by God, “anointed.”  Yet they didn’t seem to feel obligated to buy what he had to say without first examining the Scriptures to see if what he was saying was true.  Can you imagine the response of some of our present day “anointed ones” if anyone “under” them responded to their teaching or instruction by saying, “Well, that’s interesting. Let me spend some time checking it out in the Scriptures to see if you are telling the truth!” They would most likely be insulted and say, “Are you questioning my integrity?” “Are you calling me a liar?” Which of course isn’t the case, but the defensiveness of “the anointed ones” sometimes points to some real insecurities in people, who logically shouldn’t be afraid of a little question. By the way, if you are involved in anything that doesn’t allow for examination, scrutiny and even descent, I would simply say this, “Run Forrest Run!”  

I would like to leave you with these points for consideration: First, just because someone feels like they are called by God into ministry, it doesn’t necessarily mean that they are.  Second, if they are, it doesn’t mean they fully understand what it means and how to work it out. Third, it doesn’t mean they are going to handle it perfectly.   Finally, if you are one who feels that you are called by God, specifically for one ministry or another, you don’t have to constantly proclaim and explain this to everyone; just do it, even it you feel insecure, or reluctant about it and find yourself coming up with a hundred excuses not to.   Do what you believe God has called you to do. Do it with humility, kindness, grace, meekness, and compassion.  “Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience” (Colossians 3:12).

 

 

Reader Comments (1)

Good word brother.

At first when I was hurt by a church I dove right in when I started attending another one. I was hurt agin when we went on a church plany and I told myself that I will never lead again.

Now I serve, but I don't lead. I think it is better for me that way.

This was an encouraging post and I loved how you ended it. I will always clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

January 28, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterKeith

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